Death.
Just the mere word has me shivering with goosebumps. I don't know about the rest of you but that particular word has a chilling effect on me.
Growing up, fairy tales I usually read as a child always ended with these 3 words. '
Happily ever after.' But now as we grow older with more experience, you tend to question those particular 3 words. Since life is filled with it's usual bumps and bends, happily ever after doesn't really exist.
One problem after another, I'm sure no one is happy 24/7. What makes you happy defines you yourself with your surroundings. Sometimes we face problems, making us stressed and frustrated. Some problems may seem so troublesome while others might face them with ease. And that itself differs us from one another.
But one thing that would not and won't ever change, is to whom we should ever draw our strength from.
ALLAH.
To Him, and only Him, should we ever turn to. He knows what's best. He was the one who created every single being, living or otherwise. As the Creator, He knows what we are capable of and what we are not.
Sometimes, we need to hit rock-bottom, and fall hard to the ground just to get back up stronger than before. To be stronger? Only He knows how. We're mere humans, not immortal deities who are capable of controlling our own destinies. So to lean on Him, is the best solution to everything. And only then will we realize that the term 'Happily ever after' only refers to the HereAfter or Akhirat.
But that too depends on how we take on every single day of our life. As my mum usually says, "Allah is not just at the sejadah. We should see Him everywhere. Islam is a way of life."
Every time I think back of what I've gone through, the hardships He put me through, I wish there were things I could change. But yes, you can never turn back time and redo every single action, or erase every single word you said back then. The past makes you who you are in the present, and what you do in the present, affects your future. So then, I think I have a lot of things I regret, my wrongful doings, the sins I've done, and the actions that made me pay dearly; but I pray that I will never regret everything He put me through.
Learning the hard way, that hitting rock-bottom, falling so hard that you think you would break into millions of pieces, is the best way to learn, and really learn from your mistakes. You learn to choose wisely and failing is just His way of reminding you of Him.
Mere humans, remember? :)
I dedicate this post to my dearest friend, Zue, who is going through her own very hard time with her beloved father's death. Al-Fatihah...