It's scary and terrifying. It really is.. But carrying this child has its advantages and... pain??? LOL! I feel like I've been growing up so fast (mentally) for the past few months alone. And it's no easy task.. God, help me.. (=,=)
I can't wait for the day I can finally look into the little one's eyes and wonder how I got so lucky. Maybe a more overwhelming feeling than what I get when I look at my hubby's face late at night. Wow, that's deep.. Hehe.. But what's worrying me is whether I'll survive to even see his face. Sakit bersalin tu kan yang paling sakit lepas mati. I can't help but worry, not just that. Even if I do survive, the process of making the child into someone, untuk jadi anak yang soleh, is a harder task for the parents. And I'm scared that I'll fail miserably.
Well, we do see all these children abandoned and we see how they turn out to be. And it scares me to think of the child's future. Sure, he (or she) will get one very loving father and probably a strict mum, but I can only pray for his (or her) safety dunia Akhirat. *sigh*
Ya Allah, Engkau permudahkanlah aku untuk melahirkan anak ini ke dunia. Moga dia menjadi hamba-Mu yang bertaqwa. Engkau selamatkanlah anak ini, Engkau ringankanlah beban sakit itu nanti, ya Allah. Sesungguhnya Engkau sahaja yang tahu tahap kemampuanku, Engkau sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui, ya Allah.
Ya Allah, aku pohon redha-Mu dan pertolongan-Mu dalam mendidik anak ini. Aku tak mampu, ya Allah. Janganlah kerana dosa-dosaku rosak binasa anak ini. Aku pohon keselamatannya dunia Akhirat kerana di Akhiratlah tempat tinggal yang abadi. Aku tak mampu, ya Allah.
