Here I am again. Another entry today but I guess I have more things to say.
A few events happened today and made me more and more sure that for every obstacle we're facing, there is always a reason behind it. My life story was pretty much out on the open today; and I don't blame anyone but myself.
Having it out on the open made me feel a bit embarrassed to the people around me, not to mention the people I've been avoiding on BBM. *sigh*
I don't have anyone else to blame. It was solely my fault. But in a way, it made me feel a bit relieved. It meant the world for me, knowing that Allah was paying attention to me, knowing that He loved me enough to give me this test so I can't help but strive my best to get through it.
This one person I know, went through this similar situation that I'm going through and came out of it stronger than ever. I'm trying my hardest to be just like her, striving my everything just for His Love and Forgiveness. And for me, and as it should for everyone else, that's the only thing that matters.
I may have said this a thousand times. May it be for me or for any of you reading my blog, as a reminder for all of us; of how we should've turned to Him during our darkest and hardest moments and being optimistic and positive that He has a better chapter in store for us, waiting for us to turn the page.
My mum has been pretty supportive of me. I was sad that I'd disappointed my parents but my mum has this weird but rightful thinking, saying that she's happy for me. She said of how this is proof of Allah's love upon me and that I should be thankful of that and just be patient and calm throughout the whole process. He will never disappoint me as long as I 'baik sangka' with Him.
Words and actions may never break me, as long as Allah gives me strength in my every step. For He is my Saviour. Striving for His Love is difficult but I've made up my mind to never stop until I've finally reached Him.
Ya Allah, aku kan hamba-Mu. Taubatku tidaklah sesempurna mana, tetapi moga dengan setiap airmata yang aku titiskan kerana dosa-dosaku, akhirnya Engkau terima jualah diriku. Jadikanlah aku seorang yang takut and gentar pada-Mu dlm setiap saatku. Dengan ini, moga terikatlah hatiku pada-Mu dan redhalah Engkau padaku.
Ya Nur Muhammad, rinduku padamu belum lagi mendalam, belum lagi mampu mencintai kau sepenuh hatiku, belum lagi mampu menegakkan sunnahmu sepenuhnya, biarpun pada diriku sendiri, tetapi moga dengan berkatmu, wahai Rasulullah, aku mampu juga mencapainya. Kerana mendapatkan cintamu adalah sama seperti mendapat cinta-Nya.
Amiin...
A few events happened today and made me more and more sure that for every obstacle we're facing, there is always a reason behind it. My life story was pretty much out on the open today; and I don't blame anyone but myself.
Having it out on the open made me feel a bit embarrassed to the people around me, not to mention the people I've been avoiding on BBM. *sigh*
I don't have anyone else to blame. It was solely my fault. But in a way, it made me feel a bit relieved. It meant the world for me, knowing that Allah was paying attention to me, knowing that He loved me enough to give me this test so I can't help but strive my best to get through it.
This one person I know, went through this similar situation that I'm going through and came out of it stronger than ever. I'm trying my hardest to be just like her, striving my everything just for His Love and Forgiveness. And for me, and as it should for everyone else, that's the only thing that matters.
I may have said this a thousand times. May it be for me or for any of you reading my blog, as a reminder for all of us; of how we should've turned to Him during our darkest and hardest moments and being optimistic and positive that He has a better chapter in store for us, waiting for us to turn the page.
My mum has been pretty supportive of me. I was sad that I'd disappointed my parents but my mum has this weird but rightful thinking, saying that she's happy for me. She said of how this is proof of Allah's love upon me and that I should be thankful of that and just be patient and calm throughout the whole process. He will never disappoint me as long as I 'baik sangka' with Him.
Words and actions may never break me, as long as Allah gives me strength in my every step. For He is my Saviour. Striving for His Love is difficult but I've made up my mind to never stop until I've finally reached Him.
Ya Allah, aku kan hamba-Mu. Taubatku tidaklah sesempurna mana, tetapi moga dengan setiap airmata yang aku titiskan kerana dosa-dosaku, akhirnya Engkau terima jualah diriku. Jadikanlah aku seorang yang takut and gentar pada-Mu dlm setiap saatku. Dengan ini, moga terikatlah hatiku pada-Mu dan redhalah Engkau padaku.
Ya Nur Muhammad, rinduku padamu belum lagi mendalam, belum lagi mampu mencintai kau sepenuh hatiku, belum lagi mampu menegakkan sunnahmu sepenuhnya, biarpun pada diriku sendiri, tetapi moga dengan berkatmu, wahai Rasulullah, aku mampu juga mencapainya. Kerana mendapatkan cintamu adalah sama seperti mendapat cinta-Nya.
Amiin...
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